22-3-13

Today I finally ended CCA early for once :) This week is my holiday but it doesn't seem like a holiday at all.. I have been dumped with homeworks, CCA and also revisions...

1) CCA

My CCA is on every Tuesday, Friday and Saturday. For Tuesday, I had CCA from 7.45 till 6.30 .. But on that day, I actually woke up late >< I ended waking up at 8.30. I quickly took a bath and took a taxi to school. My pocket money flew away >< The taxi trip was $10. Mind you , I could have had my lunch at Pizza Hut >< But it was fine :) I ended having to do 20 push ups. It was quite little compared to the number amounts of push ups I have done during November-December holiday. Remembering the amount of push ups I have done really make my hand pain >< But I can only blame it on myself.. Who asked me not to do things properly ? But on Tuesday we had to help our seniors by lunch back to school as our Conductor do not want us to eat outside.. So practically the non-syf band had to quickly buy back lunch for our seniors. But to our dismay after we came back with our lunch , they still haven't ended rehearsals so we had to wait for them.. It was really a long wait of up to an hour.. Since some of us were too hungry including me XD we went on and eat first with a guilty feeling. It was kind of a pity for our seniors who only had up to an 15 min to eat. So they were actually quite fast in gobbling down their foods. And everyone almost ate the same thing : Chicken Rice. The only difference was that some was Halal and some wasn't. Today the same thing happened again. But worse. Since the non-syf bad can be dismissed at 12, we actually helped our seniors in buying food again but this time, I had to buy more. Instead of buying three packets o Tuesday, I ended up buying 11 packets today. Of which 6 are for my section and 5 for some others. This time round, we knew that it is going to take a longer time for the seniors to be released so we took our own sweet time. The total was $23.50 for 11 packs of chicken rice. That is considered to be cheap. When we reach school as expected, seniors was still not released. They were finally released at 12.15 which was 35 min after we came back from buying their lunch. But pity them, they only had approximately 5 mins to eat their lunch as they had to leave for Nan Hua. But I was actually happy today as he finally uttered a word of thanks to me. And to me that was heavenly.

2) The thing I guess everyone dreads the most : HOMEWORKS !!
Who really likes to do homeworks ? For me, I seriously hate it to the most. I don't find it useful to us in anyways. In homeworks , questions is really easy but when it comes to exams. Homework is needed at all. The questions are at least 10 times harder sighs... I haven't even started on mine sighs.. Writer blocks.. Dk what to write lol.. Good Bye my readers :)

17-3-13

Sorry for not posting since a long time >< Was busy with school..
A lot of things have happened recently.. My crush keeps getting more and more emo.. It kinds of breaks my heart seeing him that way.. I wanted him to smile and I'll do anything for him just to smile genuinely and happily for at least a year.. This year he is sitting for his major exam yes it might make him stressed out .. but I just can't take seeing him that emo.. Sighs.. For me, I started writing a book on WattPad titled : I'm Not Ready.. It is somekind of a normal werewolve finding an Alpha.. Hope you guys can support me :) It is only in chapter 1.. I'm going to release a chapter once every week :) Might also be writing on a book based truly on my experience :) Will keep you updated on the title.. I'm actually doing all this just so that he can get out of mind.. Yes I might sound like a overly heels over head girl in love but it's just that I can't stop it.. My friendship problems keep getting worser.. Sometimes I just want to get out of school.. There aret oo many of them double-faced.. Those who I can truly trust with my secrets are only limited.. I can only trust a handful.. Bryan, Ryan and Janelle.. All of them are my primary school friends.. compared to my Secondary school friends they are much better.. In school I might look like a seriously happy girl with no problems in my life.. nut at night before I sleep I will always cry myself to bed.. It's getting wroser these days knowing that my seniors going to graduate anytime soon.. It is going to feel weird not being able to sense their prescence anymore.. Knowing that those 3 seats are not going to be occupied by my seniors anymore instead my juniors.. It is kinda of scary realizing that I am not a junior anymore.. That I have a responsibilty over my juniors and that I have to lead them... It is scary how that by the end of this year I would have to sit for the exam that have a high chance of determining my course of life..

3-3-2013

Many things have happened since I last posted in this blog.. Exams come and go so do life.. I was really disapointed with the results I had obtained.. It really sucks.. THat was the first time in History i really felt like crying in class but managed to control letting a tear or 2 flow down my face. Same goes for cross country.. I really wanted to get into the top 50 but wasn't able to .. I tried even harder then last year.. Jogging all the way not even stopping once but yah.. I failed.. With my crush life.. It's getting even worser.. I just can't kcik him out of my head.. He keeps appearing in my head 24 hrs straight.. Be it when I'm sleeping or even awake.. But in just a few more months, he is gonna leave this school.. Then , I really wonder whether we can ever cross path ever again..
A song to summarise this whole blog post for today..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lInn25bY-Hs

17-2-13

Hi Guys :)

I'm not sure how many if you guys do read my blog and like what I have been writing about but I am really thankful for getting 26 pageviews :) Thank you :D My last post was on Valentines Day so today I am gonna talk more about my valentines day since some of my friends still celebrate it..


I really really wanted to celebrate my Valentine's Day with a special someone.. But I know that he will never celebrate it with me.. I had been liking him since the past 8 months and yet , each day , he is becoming even meaner to me.. On Valentine's , I saw him at the school and we both accidentally looked at each other.. When he saw me , he just kept quiet and carried on eating his food but for me , I walked away fast.. I was and still am afriad of seeing him in personal other than seeing him during CCA.. Sometimes he pisses me off but sometimes , he is just cute the way he is.. Sadly , he is graduating these year.. After that , I wonder whether he will ever come back to My CCA and visit us ? .. Hmm.. Maybe or Maybe Not :/

And today I have a SONG XD : Missing you Cover by Jayesslee

14-02-13

I let my mother tougue classmates know I had a blog !!! OMG no !! I do not want them to know.. Never mind .. Today's Valentine's Day :)  I got my first Valentine's Day present from my bao bei junior :) I actually wanted to celebrate it with my crush but yah ... I'll doubt he evens want to celebrate with me .. I'm actually very sad upon seeing many sweet couples receiving present from their beloved .. Me , I was walking around aimlessly .. I didn't know what I wanted to do and as if I was waiting for someone but as expected that someone didn't appear in front of me .. I ended buying a waffle and also 3 pcs of famous Amos cookie ... But yah I can't blame him .. Am quite sad about it.. I really hope that he will finally understand me and stop scolding me non-stop for my current crush .. And for my new crush to remain as best friends with me .. I don't want to lose a friend .. A close friend . That's all for today :)

13-2-13

Tomorrow , it is going to be Valentine's Day... Most of us will be celebrating Valentine's Day with our partners and a small portion of us will be celebrating it alone .. I will be one of them celebrating it alone .. Last year , I had a chance if celebrating valentine's but I didn't tok it and ending up not celebrating Valentine's... Some of you might think that Valentine's is not a big issue or anything bit to certain girls , it means a lot .. I had thought of being able to celebrate Valentine's with the guy I like this year but I might have to wait till next year .. I'm really hoping to be able to celebrate Valentine's next year. Do you remember in my previous post , I talked about my two friends ? K and D ? They showed me their real faces today ... D is always asking me for help and K is super damn fucked up ... She just keeps acting cute and acting as though she is the most popular girl in class. I was really irritated and I was also very fed up towards them .. I was lucky that I had my most awesome 3N2 seniors to cheer me up .. Even though they do not what my problem is , they always manage to cheer me up . And also Bryan .. Just by texting each other , I can really be happy talking to him :) I think , that will be it today :)

11-12-13

My 2nd Post

I suddenly missed school.. School seems more fun then ever but I still have some backstabbers in my class... There is this two girls , they pretended to be my 'best-friends' but I had always knew that they don't actually like me.. Won't reveal their name but let's name then K and D.. Me and D actually treats K like a normal friend as sometimes we do not like K .. D sometimes like to suck up to others.. And she kind of acccused me of sucking up to them as there is this boy in the class whom almost every hated him but I happen not to really hate him.. Treating him like a normal friend.. I told K and D theat he is actually a nice guy if you know him .. but they rather listen to their own opinion.. I also had some experience of the boys bad attitude but i saw that he changed a little.. Not a lot but still yes , a positive change... Then they started to talk about his past..I went on to agree with them as I knew what he did to me and the others..Nevermind shall no elaborate more on them.. Okay now I have this weird feelings.. Have stopped liking Sheng Yu but still am liking Bryan and yep another guy.. Shall not say his name..  For me and Bryan , things are proceeding pretty well as per normal but when I confessed to the another guy which was somewhere last year , his attitudes changes a lot.. He become quite a changed person towards me .. Nevermind won't really care about that... I really hope my realtionship with Bryan will not change for the worse but stay as we are now or at least change for the better. Hopefully..
Here's a song for you guys to hear.. I actually hated this son g when I first heard it bat as I keep on listening to this song , I found out that there are strong meanings behind this song :) The song is Titanium :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-N2emv41f6E

10-2-13

I just keep chatting with this particularly awesome guy Bryan.. We can just whatsapp each other like it is nobody business and not stopping till it's 1++ am.. He actually helps me in forgetting the guy whom I currently like.. He always brightens up my day.. Always there whenever I feel alone.. But on Friday, I suddenly met my ex-crush.. I suddenly kind of like him again as in my feelings for him came back but I didn't know what to do.. I told Bryan and he really helped me in clearing my thoughts on this.. I really hopes that our friendship will last for eternity..